As I mentioned yesterday, this past week at work, I'd been working overnights to help reset our toy department. This is no small task. It involves literally
flipping the entire department. Some things are moved only an aisle or two, other things are completely moving across the department. There were 5 of us working 5 nights to get it done. We came close, but due to circumstances much beyond our control, we were unable to complete the task. We came close, but we didn't quite get it done.
Last night, I dreamed that I was at work, doing the same thing I'd been doing the past 5 nights. I was plugging along, trying so hard to move forward with the project. I was standing in front of a
big, empty, unfinished wall, frustrated that I couldn't keep going, that I wasn't able to finish the project right then and there.
And then I woke up. The last thing I remember was staring at that wall, as it waited patiently for the finishing touches, clean shelves, new shelf strips, fresh new labels, and then finally, the merchandise to be placed on it. And right then, I realized that the image of that wall in my head was something God wanted me to see.
I am that wall, and God is setting me up to be bright, shiny, new and full.
I am a work in progress, and although I might not be finished on my time line, God will continue working on me until He thinks I'm ready. Lately, I've been frustrated that my life isn't exactly going according to my time line. Anyone that knows me even slightly well knows that I'm really looking forward to starting a family and becoming a mommy. I've been married nearly a year now, and there's no babies in sight. In fact, my husband and I are waiting a couple years before we have kids, so that we are financially capable of supporting them. This comes as no small frustration to me, as
I feel as though I'm putting my life on hold, waiting for something that may or may not happen. I've spent a lot of time in prayer on this matter, and I really think that last night's dream confirmed to me what God has been trying to tell me all along.
I'm not working on my time line at all.
I can do nothing outside of God's plan and timing for me. And I can have faith that He has my best interests at heart. If that means that He's not going to let me be a mommy for a few more years, I need to accept that. I can see, thanks to the mental image of that big, empty wall, that God is still working on me, so even though it feels like my life is standing still, He is moving forward and slowly and maybe even imperceptibly working on me the same way I was working on resetting those walls. He's making me bright and shiny new so that I can be the best mom possible.
How is God working on you right now?
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Actually repetition and thinking about something before going to sleep can effect dreams. If I play a videogame for two hours before going to sleep, I will dream about shooting nazis or killing zombies or driving cars or whatever the game is about.
Does god want me to shoot nazis or kill zombies?
@agnophilo@xanga - I kind of feel like you're starting to deliberately antagonize me, and I'm not really sure why you feel the need to do that.
At no point did I say that God uses every dream to speak to us. I said that God wanted me to contemplate and see that one image that I took away from that dream. I think that He can use dreams to speak to us, the same way that He can use a stranger's smile or a preacher's sermon to make His point known to us.
Hi Shana. Thanks for the mini. I think Revelife likes to choose controversial subjects so if you want to get featured, write something that could raise a lot of objections. LOL. Seriously, I like your post. God has spoken to me through certain dreams or objects in the past too. And I know what you mean about the time line thing. I had hoped to get married several years ago but it just happened in April. Now we are working on the baby but apparently that hasn't been in God's timing yet.
@MrsDoubleU - I've noticed they pick things that are likely to spur conversation. If that's what it takes, I'm quite alright sitting here unnoticed. ;)
And apparently, God is teaching you patience too! hehe :) Good luck with the baby-trying. :)
God is teaching me patience and to worry less.
@pinksunfiredragon - I'm not trying to antagonize you, honestly. You seem to be replacing the workings of your brain with god - if something occurs to you it's god whispering in your ear. I just disagree is all.
I'll try to be more tactful in future.
@MrsDoubleU - That and making 15 blogs a day.
@agnophilo@xanga - You're more than welcome to disagree with my interpretation of the way that God does speak to me in my life. However, this is *my* Christian blog for me to discuss *my* Christian faith. It just kind of feels like you're using it as your own personal soapbox as to why my faith is wrong, and I'm not ok with that. I'm all for conversation, but this isn't conversation, it's you taking the time to consistently point out what you feel are errors in my judgment. ;)
As far as the inner workings of my brain, no, I don't believe that every thought of mine is God speaking to me. I use the discernment that He gives me to determine how He wants me to interpret certain thoughts. To you, this post is about me reading way too much into a dream. To many other Christians though, it's simple to see how God is using my dream as an example for my life. Not every dream will be used by Him, but on rare occasions, it does happen.
@pinksunfiredragon - I was mainly just talking about dreams and how behavior and thoughts effect them actually. My input wasn't wanted because it disagreed with your interpretation, but it wasn't my intent to disagree, I was just stating my thoughts.